Repentance.

You're only as sick as your secrets
But the truth will set you free
The truth is the truth
And all you can do is live with it

- Dream Theater.
(22/6/2007)

1:09 am.

Its another night and I am back home now, again with a heavy heart.

Good bye Glenn?

There is but much to say about life and how things are here, but that can wait. The day, Saturday, April 24th '07 was all of Mr Glenn McGrath's. I wish to say more words about the happysad end of world cup 2007 but less is more during exam time. Good luck you:D

AHHH!

Stop haunting me already, I am tired of being sadtired. Tired of being sad tired.

And now all the good kids are messing up.

exams.

I am going out of my mind now. Read, read, Read, read, Read.

I don't even know if I can do this. Help me!!

Time Time Time, Oh bloody time.

Well into a wednesday.

Long, long day today. Felt totally useless for the most of it but GREEATTTT last Zoo252 lecture of the year. Beautiful course(I hope I do well in:D) and the proff is sucha funny man. He looks like one of those old (mean looking) german football(soccer coaches) but he has the funniest sense of humour. He is like me in a way, tells the most awkward jokes at the wrong times. But he is smart, maha smart. I jelous.

Right now, I am listening to Sarah, Aemon and Momina's school stories. They are so adorable and funny. It makes me feel like an aged aged person. Meh, its cute that I can relate to so much of it. Girls are such funny people when they are growing up, well minus Sarah who is already 17.

I felt very awkward when I went to shop for friday's dinner. I found nothing, actually didnt look hard enough. Eaton Center is too damn big, plus I would rather shop at Winners and not bother going from store to store. Ergh, such an awkward feeling. really strange.

I am listening to Anesthetize from PT's album. Its my first listen. First impression, love love love the begining. 16:44 mins. to go. I should update my mp3 player soon.

Back to zoo reading. cardiovascular=fascination=D.

If only it was easy to say it the way it is, we would all be at a warmer place.

forgive me?

YAY

This was ownage=D.

Nicole go next!!

friday is the love.

Today is my first friday off after so long. I always have class and or work and hence I am never home till 10 pm. I have missed so many jummas that I can't even count but not today(YAYAY!). Praying jumma makes me so happy. It gives a good conclusion to a hectic week and has us go into lazy/crazy weekend mode. I have had a weeek from hell this week. But, all of my labs for the year are finished now and have no more essays or quizes to worry about. Yes, its crazy that second year is almost over. I have exams between april 24th to may 2nd. I HAVE HAVE HAVE to ace them this year. Need NEED NEEEEEEEEEEEEED good GREAT gpa:(

I am scared but happy. Since I gave yesterday's essay in, there is a certain silence in my head. Its strange. One more week of classes and then exam prep time.

and then there is cricket!!=D
fightfightfightfight!

kaam karo pagal!

Note to self: Can't screw up this paper!All the sleep and the lazy/wasting time can be done post 12:30 pm tommorow. Imli is such a distraction. I have been pigging out on that plus cricket all day toady, I don't want to pull in an all-nighter tonight. MUST GET DONE NOW!

and

http://www.fin.gov.on.ca/english/publications/salarydisclosure/2006/univer06.html


this is pagalpan:O

Say na Say na!

After researching on Lahore for the last 5 hours, I deserve some msn/blog time. I hate how the router at home blew up yesterday. Zainab and Shazi's fighting key karnaamay, I am stuck working from here. I shouldn't mind it. The mausam is nice and I have a nice table and I have coke. The weather is nice. A little drizzle too. Pretty grey/blue sky and just the right wind. yum!

I am a procastinator. Jahanumi insaan!!.

Perfume: The Story of a murderer

Aila gave me this link, which has a crap loads of movies and shows online. Saturday night had us girls lazy and so we searched around on the site and stumbled upon Perfume: The Story of a murderer. I will be the first to admit that I didn't totally understand the end of it but it was a good watch nevertheless. The acting was amazing, subtle yet so powerful. I lovedd the role of the protagonist who ended up being the antagonist too. It was a beautifully done film. It was a little long and dry(in the middle of the film) as the story dragged along from the birth of Jean-Baptiste till well his end. Even despite the shameless nudity in some parts, the movie was brilliant. The actor, Ben Whishaw, is a gem of an actor-such a powerful(bordering on dark, according to Sarah) character done in such a tasteful manner. Superb!I wish I understood the end well but from whatever I did end up gathering, the movie was nothing short of excellent!

Urbanisation lecture(march 30, 2007): aftermath.

There is more to come.
Shift Happens.

realisation #986572798098398

In the past, I lived in and for the future. In the present, I have been trying to re-live the past that once was. I think this right here is why I lost my way.


There, I said it.

To blossom blue is to blossom without you.

Its such a different spring, this spring. I am uninspired, lost and definitely not focused. The fact that I miss all of you sucks even more, makes it harder. It definitely does. These are the hardest days of our lives and for what its worth, its all blue despite this warm, bright sun.

I need grace. I am lost without it.

audioslave.

Audioslave put things into perspective on the train ride from home to campus. There is so much going on. You try to make it through all that jazz, trying to stand up and be brave. You put yourself in this cold, stone-hard shell where you seem to be this perfectly strong person who can carry their world on your shoulders.They are convinced so they load you up with expectations and aspiration. You put on that strong act, you try to follow through with it. You keep up that cold exterior and then you see someone saying that they HATE you and it hits you. Now, you feel cold and alone on a sidewalk at the bottom of a hill. You are too sad and scared to go up, but you can't show it. You just can't.

Even Sadaf baji can break down, you knnow..

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saturday and sunday:D

Alhamdulilah

I am so relieved right now. Oh God, Thank you so so so much.

wow.